hope=)

Hello God, had my rest day today...went for shopping and manage to relax myself from all the work.but physically i still felt tired. God, i just want to commit my life into Your hands once again. I know that You're moulding and stretching me so much more for the challenges ahead. The bible says that You will not tempt us beyond what we can bear. I believe & hope in Your mighty plans for me, that i am still a work in process just like how the potter (God Himself) is gonna mould n shape the clay (me) into how He created me to be. Nothing beats living a life of intimacy with God. Teach me to learn to obey You and be assured in the direction You lead me to. Heavenly Father, i want to continue to trust in Your faithfulness that You're the same yesterday, today and forevermore.=) Thank You for having You that i do not have to be like a man beating the air and chasing after things in life but never being truly satisfied. One life to live and it's to live for You alone. Remind me the purpose You've placed in my heart=) i want to love You more & more and being close to Your presence, Where does my help comes from? It comes from God alone. So many times i fail again & again, but You never fail to catch me when i was about to fall. Even if i fail, You'll carry me on Your shoulders & give me the strength to carry on.=) I want to apply what i've learnt thru e sermon that is to continue to be a salt & light wherever i go. Being able to live a life as a testimony of Your goodness to me, use me God as Your mouthpiece & soldier to fight in the spiritual warfare...

As i was reflecting these few months in this year, i start to wonder to myself abt what have i done to deserve God's great love for me. so i was reminded that God's love is really unconditional, no matter whether i've done a lot or little...of course it's not the reason to slack from serving, but it's so amazing when God's grace floods in my life. Totally overwhelming... I can't help but to shout Hallelujah!!! Praise onto God the Almighty One, Omnipotent, Omniscient!!! Thank You Lord for all the blessings i've received in my life=) I want to pray for having hope in Jesus Christ alone, not allowing the life circumstances to shake my faith in God & standing firm to be an intercessor for His pple...

Life is like a rollercoaster

hahah, i know my title of the post is so cliche-"Life is like a rollercoaster." I mean it's true... Just take for example today, i experienced a variety of emotions throughout my whole day. In the morn i was rather frustated n angry with my sister becos of her request of me to help out. At times i really dun noe how to express myself to her. It's like if u want me for a favor i have the choice to say no but in this case i was kena scolded for saying no to her n also i hated the feeling of being threatened. i was quite shocked by my response twds her also when she stopped me from leaving e hse. i told her straight at her face that i hated that feeling n wat she was trying to do. All of a sudden, all the negative tots of her came into my mind...i told God i hv to change n i am not letting tis incident to make me unhappy for the day, especially it was e start of my day n somemore i am supposed to b happy mood cos i'm on leave for work.

Had my visit to dental finally...after all e "flying the dentist aeroplane" for consecutively 2 times.i felt so pai seh when the clinic assistant asked me, " R u recently very busy?" haha i replied, " not really...just that i overslept." frankly speaking i have to learn how to be on time for even minor things not onli for work.I had such a painful experience at e dental place for e first time after seeing dentist for such a long time. excited to take off my braces! Whee! no more "ms betty"..thinking back i'm quite impulsive in my decision-making for tis braces thingy-cost me 4K+, thank God for His providence that i can hv the opportunity to do it during my student days.

After that, i went to watch my online show "Bu Bu Jing Xin". It's really a nice n interesting show. my mood got better a bit. wanted to slack a bit though supposed to con't to pack the hse actualli. got 5 more days to pack before i get ready for my work again.

In the evening, went out with some ministry friends for dinner tog.=) Really enjoyed the time spent with another, got to noe more abt them ( work n family life) Felt encouraged when one sister who is a medical student now shared her views abt nurses. Got to appreciate my job in e healthcare line more, having e privilege to learn from other ppl's experiences n treasuring lives more. teachers are also very admirable having to educate the younger generation, it's really a tough job. Salute all e teachers! I'm really touched when a sister who is leaving team shared to us her journey together with us in tis ministry. i will really miss her a lot, someone who has inspired me to give the best to the kids, doing things for their good.=) Now reached home, leaving me with a lot of reflections re: the things i'm currently doing. Am i really living out my very best for Him everyday? Did i miss out anything which is more important? Thank You Lord for giving me friends ard me to spur me on! I will con't to "FIGHTING" till the end of the day!=)